Life Goes On

I don't know how I feel right now. I think I should be happy but it's not the way it is. I thought I forgot about them already. I thought I already forgot about her and the other her. But it wasn't how I felt when someone told me about the LRT incident. It wasn't how I felt when I heard the news, that they're together and I don't know. Maybe happily walking, enjoying each other's presence. Not even bothering to think about me or how I'm doing after everything. I know I'm okay, I know I'm fine right now. But you see, the feeling you get when you receive such news, I don't know. It felt as if something stung my precious little heart, which hasn't even recovered yet. Screw them. How come they never felt any consideration for me? Was I never really worth any of their attention that they did everything without even trying to think of what I might feel? I never stopped asking myself these questions, even now. I mean, who the hell are they to do that to me. I shouldn't even bother but I don't know. They're just big freaking assholes that I want to kill sometimes. But of course, I won't do that. Though it would really be a great help in releasing my emotions. Oh, I know. I'll just do it through my great great imagination, or... throw plates. Or.. HOMYGAHHHD this is the bestest idea. I'll put A's picture in the wall and throw something on it until I get tired and continue it the next day... Until all my angry days are over. And I can finally erase her in my life.

Oh, how happy life would be.